Monday, June 24, 2013

Farewell (for now)

**This is not the most perfectly well thought out post in the world. This is just what's been on my mind as of late.**

No progress has been made towards getting my laptop fixed, so I'm still kind of stuck. Like I've said before, there is a computer available for me to use, it just isn't user friendly. But that isn't really why I'm here.

I've been seriously thinking about it, and I don't know how much I want to go back to blogging. It might just be because I wasn't at a good place when all this happened, but I'm at a much better place in my life now, and honestly, just the thought of blogging makes me want to cringe. It just doesn't really sound like the kind of life I want to live, staring at a computer screen for hours on end. And what's the point of it all? To get more followers, page views, and comments? Honestly, that's what my focus was on right when this happening, more than anything else.

After things started to get better, I was looking forward to coming back. I had lots of fun plans, but now I'm not so sure. I started out blogging for myself and only myself, but then followers came along and I started trying to please everyone. I know that really I should keep blogging for myself, but it really requires changing my mindset. Is it just a hobby, or something more?

I've been doing this for two years, and in those two years I've been letting family, friends, school, and a lot of other things fall to the sidelines. And when it came to blogging, I'd spend the majority of the time just stressing and spreading myself too thin. And then I'd get frustrated when all my efforts didn't pay off.

Another thing that I think made blogging stressful was the fact that my reading schedule is very bipolar, in that I'll go through very dramatic ups and downs. Sometimes I'd be reading three books a day, and others not picking up a book for weeks. Right now I'm in a down slump, with no desire to read anything. And I'm completely okay with that.

So for now I'm still on a break, and I'm going to make the most of it! I'm going to go out there and be crazy! And when the thought of coming back doesn't stress me out, I'll be back. But I'm not going to spread myself too thin this time. I'm not going to try to post everyday. which is something I tried (and failed) earnestly to do.

Before now I'd had grand plans of hosting a month long event, starting up a NEW blog focused on fairy tale books and films in addition to this one, and opening a blog design business! Right now I have a feeling I won't be doing any of those in the near future, but you never know! I'll just have to take it a day at a time!

Thursday, June 6, 2013

I miss you!

In case you haven't noticed, I'm STILL on hiatus! I just checked with my all-knowing father, and he told me that he isn't any close to getting a new laptop screen. Which means that I'm still gone. I know it's only been three weeks, but it feels like so much longer! I have so many books and ideas to share with the world, and extremely limited time to do it in. There is a family computer I have access to, but it's shared with 7 other people and has tons of viruses on it, so it's really not the best option. I might start to post occasionally again when I get the chance, but I wouldn't count on it.

Honestly, it's been nice to have a break and not have to stress about posting, but then there's the voice in the back of my head nagging me constantly.

Hopefully my dad can get things sorted out in the next few weeks, but then I'll be gone the last week of June for a camping trip which means no internet.

So I guess what I'm saying is don't expect to see me regularly again until July.

I miss all you fantastic bookish people!

p.s. If I reach 250 followers, I'll be throwing a super-fantastic giveaway once I come back!
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...