No progress has been made towards getting my laptop fixed, so I'm still kind of stuck. Like I've said before, there is a computer available for me to use, it just isn't user friendly. But that isn't really why I'm here.
I've been seriously thinking about it, and I don't know how much I want to go back to blogging. It might just be because I wasn't at a good place when all this happened, but I'm at a much better place in my life now, and honestly, just the thought of blogging makes me want to cringe. It just doesn't really sound like the kind of life I want to live, staring at a computer screen for hours on end. And what's the point of it all? To get more followers, page views, and comments? Honestly, that's what my focus was on right when this happening, more than anything else.
After things started to get better, I was looking forward to coming back. I had lots of fun plans, but now I'm not so sure. I started out blogging for myself and only myself, but then followers came along and I started trying to please everyone. I know that really I should keep blogging for myself, but it really requires changing my mindset. Is it just a hobby, or something more?
I've been doing this for two years, and in those two years I've been letting family, friends, school, and a lot of other things fall to the sidelines. And when it came to blogging, I'd spend the majority of the time just stressing and spreading myself too thin. And then I'd get frustrated when all my efforts didn't pay off.
Another thing that I think made blogging stressful was the fact that my reading schedule is very bipolar, in that I'll go through very dramatic ups and downs. Sometimes I'd be reading three books a day, and others not picking up a book for weeks. Right now I'm in a down slump, with no desire to read anything. And I'm completely okay with that.
So for now I'm still on a break, and I'm going to make the most of it! I'm going to go out there and be crazy! And when the thought of coming back doesn't stress me out, I'll be back. But I'm not going to spread myself too thin this time. I'm not going to try to post everyday. which is something I tried (and failed) earnestly to do.
Before now I'd had grand plans of hosting a month long event, starting up a NEW blog focused on fairy tale books and films in addition to this one, and opening a blog design business! Right now I have a feeling I won't be doing any of those in the near future, but you never know! I'll just have to take it a day at a time!